Tuesday, July 17, 2007
hey mellie. wah. the blog
is old. or
we're old. haha. either way. still OLD. it's funny, and kinda sad, how i haven't really been giving this blog any notice until you posted and it suddenly popped up on my blogger dashboard. so thanks dear.
was just doing some thinking.
my jc friends don't know me as you guys know me. you all know my faults and yet, you somehow accepted me. we somehow accepted each other. i guess that's the beauty of being at an age where you feel that you can trust anyone, everyone. i wish it's like that now. but i've started to become more cautious of revealing too much because i've seen what it can do when you provide ammo for people to hurt you. so i become less than who i am around other people. just less.
and sometimes that withdrawal just spills over and i'm sorry if i seem quieter. and not really
there there.
oh. it's sort of interesting how i feel somewhat uncomfortable when i say things like "i love you" to my current group of friends, when it's so second nature to
declare it to anyone of you guys and not be typed-cast as "oh-she's-in-one-of-those-girls'-school mood again" or "is she alright?" type of looks. they just don't understand do they. ah well. too bad for them then.
i suppose now would be a better time to ask for forgiveness cos there might not be another moment and just like that song from that person,
time has a habit of slipping away. i want to apologize if i've ever hurt anyone in the past in one way or another. i really didn't mean to. and i wouldn't have realised it since i was so absorbed then. maybe i still am now. i'm so sorry.
okay. i think i'm in such a melodramatic pity-me-pity-me mood cos i'm having my period and i'm having moodswings so yearh. take this post as a one-off thing from me. hahah.
anyway.
i'll see you people soon. love you all badbadbadly. missing you guys already.
There's the people whom you've known forever, who know you in this way that other people can't. Because they've seen you change.. They've let you change.-Angela, My So-Called Life
thanks to every single one of you. thanks for liking the little geek in me. (:
siti* @ 5:30 PM
...at the beginning with you (:
Thursday, July 12, 2007
i read thru the archive of OUR blog, and realised how long we have been friends for. it's amazing.
the last post was more than a year ago. and im blogging without knowing whether anyone will read this.
from sweet sixteen, to this year when we're nineteen. gosh. i miss you guys! can we meet up soon?!
mellie @ 4:38 PM
...at the beginning with you (: